September 17, 2003
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Well, here I am again. I seem to post in stutters and jerks. If my rants were a car, we’d all have whiplash. heh
I’m still unemployed. Not one of the businesses I gave my resume to have called me. I went to the Allentown Business School to see about a marketing/advertising program. Dear gods they’re expensive! For a year and a half, it would have been twice what I was making yearly when I was still employed full time as a bank teller. How the heck do people afford school?
I absolutely will not take out a loan. I owe enough money on my credit card and for my car. I am not going to owe $30,000 yet on top of that. Forget it. That’s like one hundred times what I owe now.
The representative kind of talked me into signing up anyway. Mostly I was tired after two hours of indoctrination and outright flattery, and wasn’t thinking too clearly any more. (And he was really cute and Irish like me heh).
Eeeew, but while I was there, I saw the first boss I ever had. I think she works there. I don’t think I could face the possibility of seeing her creepy self every Monday through Thursday for a year and a half. She recognized me right away. She said she was glad to see I had “come out of my shell.” AS IF! Gah, online I’m a bit of a personality, but in person, if I don’t know you, I can barely talk without a stutter. I suppose compared to how I was when I first entered the workforce under her bulging, watchful eyes, I was worse than I am now, but not by much. I hope to the gods I can find a job where I can hide from people for extended lengths of time. I can’t work with the public any more. I think I’m broken.
So once I got home (before actually), of course I changed my mind about going to ABS. My mother and her boyfriend’s reactions merely clinched my gut feeling. That was just way too much money to be spending even if I wouldn’t have to pay anything back till six months after my graduation. I called the representative this morning, and it took him three hours to call back. Yeesh!
But he had told me I could get the $60 admission’s fee refunded in five days if I chose to back out, so no harm done I suppose.
