February 18, 2005

• Well, I sent off emails to two sleep study programs I found, but one came back already (the more interesting of the two) as a bad address. Oh well. The other is not so much a dream study as it is a sleep position study, that is they’re trying to correlate the position in which you fall asleep and wake up with your dreams. I guess we’ll see what we see.

  
  

  On the meantime, I guess I’ll just keep looking.

  
  

  On a completely different front… The least I have ever weighed as an adult was 185 lbs. That’s not too bad for 5’8″. One hundred eighty-five is what I weighed after I went vegetarian. I lost 30 lbs when I made that choice. Best thing I ever did too. Of course, then I got the job at the bank and went up to 220 lbs over the course of three years, through depression and the sedentary nature of the job itself. Now, after one and a half years at the bookstore, I am back to 185 lbs. Yay! And I haven’t really been trying to lose, it’s just all the running around and no more depression munchies.

  
  

  Now I am trying to give up soda. I knew it was bad when I couldn’t even remember how many I had drunk in a day, but there were four cans on my desk (cuz I’m lazy and don’t throw them in the recycle bin right away). So in the past week, I’ve gone down to no more than two cans in a day. Yesterday I only had one. I think I’ll switch off two/one every other day for a week, then to one a day for a week, then one every other day, etc. I’ve been drinking coke for a LONG time. I know I’m going to have withdrawal symptoms, and I get enough headaches already. So I’m going to go slowly. I’m bound to lose more weight as I go off the soda. That’s a lot of calories there. Plus sugar and caffeine leech calcium from your bones, and that’s something I have to start thinking about as a 30 (soon to be 31) year old woman.

  
  

  Another addiction that’s easier to deal with is my desire to play online games. There’s so many things that I could be doing but instead play games, hour after hour, without noticing the passage of time, that I am deleting all my links to online games. I will no longer play them and hopefully there will be no withdrawal from that! lol

  
  

  Now, and interesting story my subconscious told me last night…

  
  

  I was with a group of teenagers planning a swimming trip in the country after school. I stopped in at my home (which was my childhood home in Catasauqua) and found my family renovating the house to make it into a bed and breakfast. There were three beds in my room, bags of garbage, and piles of clothes all over. I was very annoyed at the mess and helped clean it up, even though I wanted to go swimming. Then I helped set up a buffet.

  
  

  Finally I got to go with my friends. We went out to the country, stopping by a river to go swimming. When we were done, we got out of the water, and it became a ditch/stream. But in a deep portion of the stream, there were these huge carp as you might seen in a decorative pond. I said that someone must have dumped them there. They were completely tame, allowing anyone brave enough to pet them. There were so many you could barely see the bottom of the stream. There were also huge catfish which came swimming up and down the stream.

  
  

  We drove back through suburbia and stopped at a house where one of the group’s mothers was working as a house cleaner. While we were there, the owner of the house brought out a pattern of the Holly King which he was very proud of. It could be used to make a quilt or a tablecloth or anything a person might want. While he was out of the room, one of the boys thought it would be funny to rip it. When the rest of us realized what he was doing we ran out of the house, but someone had vandalized the car so we couldn’t leave. The boy said he knew where his guidance counsellor from school lived. By the time we found her house though, it was dark.

  
  

  So of course, he broke in. She was scared witless, but not because we broke in. Apparently there were monsters after her. After she realized we were human, she told us a story (that was very similar to Devilman if you’ve ever seen the anime). Apparently there were these evolving machines that were created at the dawn of time. They evolved by merging with one another to form better and/or larger machine/organisms. Their primary function was to break things down to their base elements, like bacteria. But they started to evolve into various forms, microscopic and multicellular. Eventually they evolved into humans, plants, animals, etc. (In the dream, I pictured Sesame street muppets merging. Cookie monster and Big bird and Burt, Ernie, and Oscar. It was very weird.) Which explains why humans are creative and destructive… creativity is a deviation from the original programming. We’re supposed to destroy stuff…. 0.o

  
  

  She ended by saying that some people hadn’t forgotten their true origins and were trying to destroy the world as they’d originally been programmed. They were planning something and unfortunately, they’d gotten wind of her knowledge of their plans.

  
  

  Of course, we thought she was friggin’ nuts…

  
  

  Until the house was attacked.

  
  

  Then we escaped to the next house over, which happened to belong to the family of one of the girls in our group (don’t ask me why we didn’t go there originally). Her parents had also been among the people who attacked the house.

  
  

  In the fridge was a block of what looked like government cheese, but it smelled fruity. When her parents came in the house looking for us, we forced the fruity cheese down their throats. It was food for them, but they only needed a little. Too much and they would die.

  
  

  Of course, their daughter was freaking out because we killed her parents. She ran out and her “people” caught her and carried her off to this “grand merging” where she was the last component of a merging that would make a super creature to devour (and therefore breakdown to it’s basic elements) the entire earth. We ran after to save her, and found all these people attached to this thing that looked like an inverted Christmas tree with the people as ornaments.

  
  

  And now, I must go to earn my mundane living. Really I’d rather go back to bed and dream some more! heh

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