I went with my sister to her job today. Actually, I followed her through torrential downpours, mad truckers spraying more water than the sky above us, and drivers scarier than my sister who don’t know enough to turn their headlights on in a rainstorm and who merge into lanes where there is really not enough room for them. Ugh, someone find me a home job. I don’t want to drive anywhere anymore. People are scary.
I will probably not apply for a job where my sister works. It’s even farther away than my current job and though its in a lovely area, surrounded by centuries old stone houses (many of which were up for sale, sad to say), I just can’t see making that trek everyday. Not for a job that my be as toxic to my frazzled nerves as my current job is.
The residents I met were nice enough, but some of the stories my sister told me make me less than eager to apply. On the one hand, it would be an opportunity to acquire new skills. On the other, the thought of trying to calm violent people down is about as appealing as it is at my present job, and I’d have to deal with it more often where my sister works.
At this point, I have enough saved up that I could afford to be out of work about two months. I’d like to have at least three months worth of funds before I let my job push me to the point of walking out. I’m trying to get back into crafting, but finding the time to do it is hard. I spend most of my free time online and/or writing. Maybe I should spend less time online. It’s hard to work with clay, make paper beads/mache, or paint between surfing the web. I am very good at dividing my attention into multiple areas, but I’m afraid if I fracture my attention too much I’ll give myself attention deficit. Some kind of ADD may explain why I never seem to finish much of anything.
One things is certain, I need to get out of my current job, but I don’t think I can do what my sister does. It’s clear she loves her job, but I can’t see myself in her shoes. The drive alone was enough to send my back into spasms. I don’t think I can do more than my current 20-25 minute commute. Her trek is 45 minutes to an hour. Maybe I should go to Hollywood and try to make it as a scriptwriter. It’s not like I can do worse than the people currently shaping Hollywood.
What can I do? I don’t know any more. I need to do something different. I need to do something that uses my creativity, something that uses my brain and my knowledge. I need to live in a society that values money less and ethics and art more. I think I was born too soon. Society makes me sick. I don’t know how to live in this world.
July 23
The Neptunalia honored the sea god Neptune and his wife, Salacia, goddess of the wide-open salty sea and the mineral water of springs. Originally Neptune was a god of fresh waters while his wife held dominion over the salty seas. The goddess Sulis of the hot springs of Bath may have been one of her aspects. Neptune and his wife are equivalent to the Norse deities Aegir and his wife Ran. In Greece, Salacia would be Amphitrite.
In Egypt the Festival of the Rise of Sothis-Sirius, the star of Isis was celebrated in conjunction with the rise of the Nile. This was usually celebrated on the 3rd day of Thuthi. The Egyptians referred to this as prt Spdt “the going up of (the goddess) Sothis” and was called wpt-rnpt, “the opening of the year” one of three “New Years” festivals of the Egyptians. This was the third New Year’s festival and heralded the first day of the Sothic year.
Gwyl o Cerridwen is the Feast of Cerridwen which begins at sundown.
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it’s hard to find a job right now. there’s so many people out of work now. even my “hellish” job has started doing 3 interviews before hiring and then a drug test afterwards. i mean for retail 3 interviews that is just insane! how about a interview with a bank or security company they probably have less interviews than that.
@NightlyDreams - When I worked at the bank (worst job I ever had BTW, even worse than my current one), I only had one interview.
Doing crafts could be good. Maybe get an Etsy account or something. Then you could spend the time you would normally be doing commuting and working on creating your crafts. Maybe just hold on long enough to get the 3 months saved up that you feel comfortable with. I hope that you find what you need.
I’m sorry.
I hope you find a job. Maybe you need to take a leap and quit your current job in order to be “open” to the prospects of a new one. But I know that’s scary and not financially advisable, especially right now.
@Broom_Service - I’ve thought about that. I’m hoping I can hold out till October and that no financial issues arise that set me back.
@heidenkind - I know what you mean. That’s the way it’s been in the past. I’ve never managed to find a new job while I still had one. At this point though, I think I’d have better luck opening the phone book at random and picking a number to call to see if they’re hiring. I wonder if I could get work in a horse farm… I used to have horses when I was a kid, but that was like 20 years ago. I don’t think they’d consider that “experience.”
do you think you can shift focus perhaps and head back to school for
a degree?
a certificate?
some type of specialized training?
@bodhitree - I don’t really have the money to do that and I don’t know what I would study. I have my associates in liberal arts. My problem with school is that I already know and study so much (being a self-taught dabbler does have its drawbacks heh), that it’s hard to find something I don’t already have a finger in and can therefore maintain an interest in learning slowly at the pace of a school. I wish I could just take a test in a subject I know and they could say, yup, here’s your certificate/degree. lol
@harmony0stars - You got that right! Get out of there before the holiday season.
Maybe you can start on some crafts during any down time that you might have.
@harmony0stars - That’s not a bad idea. I think with a job like that, loving horses and being able to work with them would count for more than experience.
RYC: I didn’t know about were-hippos.
i’m no help, but i’m pulling for you…