April 23, 2010
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Late Last Night…
Last night was rough. After my last post, things kind of died down in so far as my spectral visitors go. Last night, it wasn’t just whispers bothering me while I was trying to sleep. I actually heard a man’s voice, maybe two. It was to the point where I felt I should go turn on the light and look out the back door to see if someone was trying to break in. To make matters worse, when I had gone downstairs around 1 am, there had been a smell of B.O in the kitchen and my stepdad had not closed or locked the back door. The voices didn’t start until after I closed and locked it, but I still wanted to go down and check even though I’d locked it myself. I try to be accommodating of ghosts, but if one would have manifested itself last night, I think I would have thrown a pillow at it.
Then I woke up about 2 hours later at 3 with terrible heartburn. I went downstairs and took two tums. Then 2 hours later I woke up with terrible pain in my stomach (gas I suppose) and spent a good half hour whimpering in bed before getting up and going downstairs to hang out in the bathroom for a while. I was <-this-> close to making myself throwup when it finally stopped. Now I have heartburn again. Feh… getting old sucks.
In other news, I am done editing The Quiet One. Official word count stands at 106740, which is about 20,000 words more than the Hobbit to give you some idea of its length. I’m going to be tagging a few people who I think might be interested or who have expressed interest in beta-reading. If you are interested, send me a private message with your email, and I’ll send it to you. I don’t need any editing done, just your impression of the piece and anything that doesn’t work for you or which is unclear.Just so you know, this is a horror novel, and there are very graphic scenes of gore and while there is no sex, there is sexual content and some of the characters have potty mouths. I won’t be offended if you decline reading. Horror’s not for everyone, but despite being a horror story, the story is about the characters, not the horror. The best description I can give is that it is a modern fairytale in the style of the Grimm Brothers- in so far as very bad things happen to people and there are witches, shapeshifters, and vampires. All of the creatures used in the story come from mythology and folklore (not Hollywood) so the vampires will be like nothing you’re probably familiar with. The story centers around a nerd named Fiona, a very socially awkward and shy young woman, who gets thrown into a nasty situation by family politics she knew nothing about and has to learn to depend upon her new friends, rather than always taking the weight of the world onto her own shoulders. If you do decide to read and can think of a better description, it would be much appreciated! If I did not tag you, and you’re a friend of mine and interested, just send me a message.
Comments (11)
For a while I was having terrible heartburn at night. My doc and dad thought it was stress from work, even though my job was like anti-stress.
I’m sorry you are having these troubles. Perhaps you can do a “cleansing” of some kind? Sleep if you could get it would definitely help too.
I get kind of scared staying alone because I seem to be much more perceptive to sounds! Eek!
@heidenkind - Stress doesn’t necessarily come only from work… there’s all the fear associated with living in the world today, worrying about what some fool with a gun or “weapons of mass destruction” might do or the economy becoming worse or never getting the chance to feel useful in society by using the talents with which you were born. Everything is stressful these days if you think too much about it… which I hope I haven’t made you do.
@NightlyDreams - I considered it, but I don’t want to clear away the good ghosts with the bad. I’m afraid the good ghosts might be keeping the obnoxious one(s) in check.
@TheCheshireGrins - I know how you feel. Clairvoyance is the ability to see, but clairaudience is the ability to hear ghosts. I’ve never had much experience with the first, but I seem to have the latter in spades.
@harmony0stars - would a cleansing not just take the bad and not the good away?
@NightlyDreams - Not necessarily. The good might see it as an opportunity to move on as whatever kept them is cleared away, while the bad could leave for a little while and come back when there’s nothing to keep them from being even worse.
It’s gonna be a good book from what I read on your other website months back. Reading it in beta would be fine, but I’d really like to purchase it when it’s published and get the whole experience then.
Do you think that writing the horror stuff has influenced your dreams and spiritual life? I just know that being this focused on horror for so long would give me bad dreams all the time. And I have enough nightmares at is is.
@BoureeMusique - That’s fine. You can wait if you prefer. I know some folks don’t like reading from the screen.
Actually, I think writing horror helps me get rid of negativity that might otherwise build up, since I tend to keep things to myself when maybe I should speak out more often. I channel my anger or frustration into my writing. It’s like separating that part of myself out and exercising it at the same time, very cathartic. I’ve been dreaming a lot, very weird stuff, but nothing I would call a nightmare and nothing that sticks with me more than a few seconds after I wake.
Sounds like it’s working out well for you. I’ve been working personally on letting myself think through things, letting myself feel what I feel. I think that recognizing and accepting where I am each night helps cut back on the nightmares. I like what you said about separating and exercising. I’ll admit I giggled and thought “exorcising” as well.
@BoureeMusique - Well, I don’t believe anyone should ever fully exorcise their “demons.” It might leave you very ill prepared against people who maybe let their demons roam a little closer to the surface. Better to be able to look at the dark and understand it’s a part of you than reject it and find yourself unable to adapt to a bad situation. A little darkness can keep you alive, and being aware of your own darkness can prevent you from giving it too much power if a morally questionable event should arise.
…reminds me of William Blake’s ideas of Innocence and Experience. I used to be too innocent. Now I’ve tasted some of the darker side of life (though not much, mind you) and I choose to find the balance. You’ve given me much to ponder.