December 13, 2003
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Well, it’s happening again, and I know it’s just the time of year, but I honestly hoped that my love of the bookstore would curtail my agoraphobia. For those who don’t know, Agoraphobia is the fear of crowds and open spaces. Well, I don’t mind open spaces, but crowds make me completely neurotic.
I’ve hated crowds since jr highscool when the other (popular) students lynched me. Well, technically it’s not a lynching unless you get hanged (as some people have pointed out to me), but the other students followed me for two blocks, spitting on me, calling me names, and throwing whatever they found on the ground at me. I think you can see, it’s not too far from a lynching.
Ever since then, crowds have made me horribly anxious. Sometimes I just want to run and hide. It’s not that I mind helping people find their books. This is my dream job. It’s the fact that you can’t turn around without falling over someone and when you’re done helping one person or even while you’re helping one person, three others are demanding help also.
There’s too many frikkin people. And people wonder why I complain about breeders and cities. People, use a little self control or spring for a little snip-snip but stop with the excessive baby-making. The world’s not going to miss your little genetic contribution and if you want a baby, there’s plenty of orphans to adopt. I don’t really hate people or children, despite how misanthropic I sound. I just think there are too many of them. Six billion people is too many people even if I don’t have to interact with all six billion.
Some nights I just want to find a quiet corner and curl up in a fetal ball. The holidays are the worst. I don’t know why people have to wait till the last minute and then gather together in one place like a semi-sentient fire code violation. Go home people. Try doing your shopping in advance of needing it rather than two weeks, a week, a day before its time. My anxiety attacks will thank you.
Comments (8)
Q: How can I expect them to forgive me, when I can’t forgive myself?
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Bwaa, there are too many people.
We need some natural predators here, Darwin!!! We have totally overstepped natural selection and have therefore grossly overpopulated the world and are destroying everything in it, we humans, like a teeming viral mass that infects all that it touches…
…enough. I do hate people.
And some babies.
i like what you said about methodical madness =)
issues certainly can be interesting and fun at times, but i’d rather not have them.
hey i like the holidays! all the jolly caroling and bright lights and family gatherings. there’s a kind of warmth to it all…
I think you enjoy an entirely different aspect of the holidays Scatterheart. Family gatherings may be fun (or not), but people out shopping are surly and rude. Let’s just say a lot of people would be getting coal from Santa if he existed.
if we stopped re producing eventually there would be no one on earth. We can’t have that happening now can we? perhaps they could just take a break, then, they can go crazy. lol……ew
holidays suck BECAUSE of shopping. it’s a proven fact.
Can’t have that happening? And why not? What do you care, you’ll be dead anyway. When I die, the whole world may as well be dead. Why should I spend half my life ensuring that some disgusting little snot-eater that happens to have sub-microscopic particles resembling mine lives on after I’m dead? And yea, if you haven’t figured it out, I do hate people…and children…especially the latter. And if someone posts on here making some joke about me being the Grinch or some crap like that, I’ll seriously stab them. Twice.
you are such a cat not in a hat… more like in a green furry suit you bastard… get over it, you were once a kid too you ass…
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